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Cognitive Distortions that Add to Anxiety, Worry and Stress


1. All-or-nothing thinking: Looking at things in black-or-white categories, with no middle ground (“If I fall short of perfection, I’m a total failure.”)

2. Overgeneralization: Generalizing from a single negative experience, expecting it to hold true…



What does kindness get you? This.


I hate being on mobile cause I dont have that see more option.

I just need something to know it’ll get better. To know the only reason she talked to me was to get back money from something that was absolutely free for her. But I dont care. Im kinda glad I get this chance one last time to see her. Hopefully I can just get that closure I need. I know im hoping for more but It’s not a thing at this point



wow i cant draw
*keeps drawing*


proper fucking attitude.




I cant stop taking pictures of myself. Ff








This abandoned tuberculosis hospital right down the street from my house has some of the most interesting and beautiful graffiti I’ve seen, I’m sad for not getting more pictures. It closed in the early ’80s, and some of the lockers still had patients’ rusted hangers in them. Supposedly one of the most haunted places in Massachusetts, although I didn’t experience anything (which was super disappointing). There’s three huge buildings and every time you turned around there was a new stairwell. I could’ve stayed for hours.

i want to go to there

you are the person in the first five minutes of a supernatural episode

I lost it at Stay Gold Ponyboy

Again, ignore me.

I was actually a lil ok at work today. I could focus somewhat on the task at hand. But then some d*ck head comes in and is being an @ss to everyone, especially me. He just called me names and kept going and me being at work means I couldn’t retaliate. But it just hit a nerve and it got me all down again. Luckily I got to go in the cold box alone so I could try to fight off the tears.
Its just like exactly what he was saying was hitting exactly how I feel still. I wanted to stop him but I felt he was a lil right still. Im just really upset about everything is all how im a secondary option, im not worth a thing to everyone. Its like the already deep wound had a jagged knife plunged into it. I just want to be ok again.

Jusy ignore all my text post.

I’m still going through a lot with the break up and I know it’s going to be a very long time until I’m at least “ok”.
Shes always told me she learned something from every relationship she’d ever had. But what did she learn from this I wonder? Don’t waste your time?
What did I learn? Did I learn anything or am I more lost then I was before? I feel like the only thing I’ve learned is that im still not worth anyones time. That my anxiety goes haywire when a problem is presented to me. That I’m just easily forgettable and disposable.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt this bad before. Its worst than when a girl who supposedly loved me just one day descided I wasnt worth it anymore and stopped talking to me. I was just left wondering what I did wrong. With this I’m left with so much more. What did I do wrong? Am I not good enough? Was I always just that last resort? Why am I left behind? Where can I better myself, how can I better myself, what do I do with myself, and just am I really not that interesting? Am I just a temporary escape for people? How can I continue and try to be happy when there’s so much left unsaid. I want to hear her voice, I want her back with me, but I know that will never be the case. She left me behind to pursue what she thinks will make her happy. And it just kills me knowing that I wasnt the one to do that. That I’m the one that was holding her back. That I was just wasting her time. I was so happy with her, I wanted to stay with her and thats why I dealt with all the bull crap these last 4 months. She was my happiness the only thing that kept me going through the shit storm that continued to pummel me. Never did I think she would just up and leave me for another. Never did I think I’d be stuck here alone all again. I wanted to believe she was different from all the others, that she understood me and actually wanted to be there for me. Its just im gonna miss her so much. I just loved the times we had together and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. But now we’re here, her with mike, and me alone. And I just dont know what to do. I lost the only thing giving me any type of motivation to keep trying. I just dont know anymore. Why is it always me? Why cant I just be ok for a good couple of months? Why can’t I just have something good? It’s always taken away from me when im proudest of it the most and just makes a deeper wound I started with.
I just suck and I wish I could be better. I wish I could be something. But I know how hard I try, I can’t.

I just feel really bad. Knowing I was the second option the entire time and still trying to be happy for her sake. I saw the look in her eye when she talked about him, the love letter she wrote him, the ” Mike and dana ♥” through her school book and yet I remained hopeful things would work out. Yet here I am, all alone once again, stuck at the bottom. Knowing I was always that second option and never a first, no matter how bad it got between those two, just makes me feel like shit. I’m not that “amazing person” she said I was, I just another run of a mill dude. If I was, I would have never lost her nor had been in this situation to begin with. I feel so dumb thinking I was actually someone worth something. I was always just that friend to begin with and just a filter till he got back. I dunno what to do anymore. It’s like all the stuff I’ve built up over time is just crumbling into I crevas deeper then the ground it was built on. I just want to be happy but it’s like whenever I become happy, it’s taken away from me like I wasn’t meant to have it to begin with. It’s like I’m not meant to have my own happiness, like I can’t live a good life. The universe just keeps just pounding this into my head and I feel like I should just accept it. There’s nothing going for me and I dont have that push anymore. Im just completely lost and I just dont feel good at all. I dont feel closure, I don’t feel like I’ll be ok and I just feel like this is never going to end.

I just want to talk to you so bad but I know I cant anymore. It just hurts so much